That was near a barge by the Tappan Zee Bridge. As other drunks well know, at the time John probably didn't even recognize he was not okay to be navigating a boat. Alcohol dulls the whatevers which signal us that our judgment and motor skills are off. Eventually the mood is also affected.
John has been sentenced to two years, reports the New York Post. That is one for each person, both his friends, who died. They were bride to be Lindsey Stewart and Mark Lennon, the brother of the best man. He is eligible for parole in 16 months.
In Rockland County Court, reports the NY Post, he sobbed. So, how can he come to forgive himself? That's why Alcoholics Anonymous recommends those in recovery to stick with the 12 steps, which you can read here. Several of those 12 focus on doing a fearless inventory of wrongs done others, sharing that list with another human being, and making amends.
That is one proven path to self-forgiveness. Will the relatives of those who died ever forgive John? According to AA's 12 steps, if they don't that would be sad. However, it's irrelevant. What matters is that the former miscreant made a sincere attempt to right the wrong.
Most correctional facilities have AA meetings.